new phase

the only thing when ure 23,
u definatly talked about:

1. boyfren
   
2. kawen
3. anak
   
4. keja
5. kereta
6. makan
7. baju

hehe.kan kan kan?
tgk membe2 pun da bley bergaya. aku jugak slebet mcm ni jugak.
dah bley wat percakapan yg agak dewasa.
haha.acey.
tipu la kalau tak nak.
bout those thing just not YET happen to me.
hehe.
myb sbb aku belum grad.

=,(

ok. the new phase of my life is:
im gonna enter oral surgery department next week!
ok.aku tak excited pun.
5 words can describe my feeling ryte now:
lame. malas . pathetic. happy. scary.

basicly department ni,
involve ngn oral n maxillofacial surgeries.
kalau ade cleft lip or palate, or
org2 yg ade abcess kat leher ke ape..
kat kepala la fokoknya~
bukan kami yg conduct operation.
hehe.
kami assist saja. tulis2 wat report. amik barang.
pegang plastik waktu drainage nanah (haiya) hehe.
hecting sket2.bukak hecting. amik tensi. check blood pressure.
soal jawab case. jage barang. jaga tepon. lebey kurang la.
pastu jd kurus sb keja kena lari sana sini.
(hbis la aku !)
ini mengikut kata senior.
aku pun tak sure.
aku akan observe sniri starting next week.
hehe~


how my next 3 months would be?
owh resident, please be kind to kind us.
please dunt bully us.
please let us sleep during no on-call.
please dunt scold us if we misunderstand ur instruction.
please. please. please.
owh specialist, please dunt let us be thin.
please give us easy questions .
please smile while u see us.
please forgive us if we done sumthing wrong.
please let us learn some more if we cant answer u.
please.please. please.

the way they used to describe OS,
mostly mcm scary.
aku rase macam PKN pun ada.
hahah..cukup 3 bulan.
dari kul 7 sampai kul 4.
untung2 malam kena jaga malam for emergency.
kena lari sane sini.
hehe.papa aku pun pelik
eh.korang pun ade on-call ke?
hehehe~

truly.
insyaAllah,aku harap sgt2 aku kuat ngn tgk, buat dan hadapi suma ni.
aku tau mesti susah nak wat hati n mental kebal gile dr segala tomahan, kutukan n penghinaan.
i guess kena pasang benteng dr skg.
kalau kena marah, kena maki,
kena pandai tapis2 supaya tak masuk dlm hati sgt.
hehehe~
kan best kalu muka aku cam bantal.
ley serap orang nye marah tanpa turun ke hati.
agak-agak nye la kan.
eh sempat lagi ke tukau profession?
=p
aku sudah gilos!

adios!
gracias!

masa lalu =)

*ini aku time berangan* =D

dulu mase kecik2, time darjah satu.
ade satu kad kaler hijau, kena isi..
cikgu tanya :
" apa cita-cita kamu bila besar nanti?"
saye jawap:
"saye nak jadi arkitek cikgu.supaya sy bley lukis pape ja yg saya suka"
"lagi?"
erk.sy dah heran.
"kenapa cikgu, bila besar kita kena keja banyak2 ke?"
hahahaha...
"tak lah...kalau tak jadi arkitek,kamu ada 2 lagi pilihan lain, keep your option open"
hehe.ok bahagian yang last tu tipu.
dialog tu aku edit sniri.
hahaha.
fokoknye.
aku ingt aku nak jadi.
arkitek. lawyer. pegawai bank.
(acey.cita-cita nak up aja time kecik.mmg tak bley blah)
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tapi bila dah semakin besar,
(dlm form 1 or 13 tahun camtu )
aku sedar
aku tak ley jadi lawyer.
bukti ke-1:
sb aku tak reti sgt nak ckp2 byk2 or berpidato ke hape.
nak lawan2 ckp lagi la.
aku more to kaki redha.
hehe.
cikgu mohd noor (cikgu BM aku time form 1)
bila dia suh aku bersyair..
aku berdiri dan diammmm seribu bahasa...
(benggang ja cikgu ngn aku hehe)
sbb dan alasan:
aku tak bley bersyair, sb bila bersyair for sure aku akan terkuar air mata,
syair tu terlampau mendayu-layu lah.hahah
too emosional.cannot take it.
then i leave it.
bukti ke-2:
bila masuk form 3,
aku menghadapi masalah ngn rumusan.
sb aku slalu silap paham isi tersirat.
hahahaahah..
tak ke bahaya tu weh??
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time aku form 3 jugak.
aku sedar.
aku tak bley jadi pegawai bank.
sbb dan alasan~
bukti ke-1:
time blaja kemahiran hidup, kalau belajar wat akaun.
aku tatau nape buku akaun aku mesti bertempek sana sini.
tak ubah cam bedak sejuk atas buku.
liquick sana sini.
mmg berlemuih (dirty in kedah language)
cikgu pun tak larat nak suh aku tukar buku.
hehe. asyik silap masuk akaun jaa..
*kan bahaya kalau keja bank camni??*
then bila masuk form 4.
ade hati amik prinsip akaun.
hehe.naseb best fren aku sgt terre akaun..
so die ngn berbesar hati exchange kerja skolah ngn aku.
hehe.
aku way omwork yang aku suka.
die wat kan omwork yg dia suka.
btw.
Alhamdulillah..
skg dia pun dah selamat grad.
dan keja kat firm yg berkaitan akaun2.
hehe
*amaran keras: ok adik2 jgn contohi kami yg exchange kerja skola suka sama suka*
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but then?
ape aku jadi skg?
hehe.
rahsia =p

my best friend's wedding =)

i knew her since both of us wus 16 years old.
we used to write whenever we sad.
we used to sing while we bored.
we used to eat-a-lot when we broke.
we used to "usha" the same guy while outing.
we used to study when black-out.
we used to sleep when we stressed with our day.
we used to skipped prep when we felt like to do that.
we used to cry when one of us sick.
we used to pretend we were ok while were not.
we used to admire 'shiela-on-7' very much.
we used to complaint all night long till we forget.
we used to escape n throw the cats at the middle of the night.
we used to do stupid things when we were together.
we used to be for each other whenever we in trouble.
we used to had a double-dated once when we were much younger then today.
we used to be in the broken-heart phase at the same time.
we used to fight for the same things that we want.
we used to do the greatest thing together.
i really appreciated that i met u and i knew u.

the day i saw u with in ur wedding dress,
i was very happy till i could cry,
but really i couldnt express why.
we were so young back then,
lingering around with our dreams..
telling each other bout everything.
our dream day, our best day.
our bad day.
but now, we grown-up to be someone better.
much more stronger and matured than yesterday.
more than we know and ever dreamed before.
thank you Allah,
for given up the chances for me to watch her,
on her big day.
i know u will be a wonderful wife~
i know u will always do.
i wish u a happily ever after =)
till then,
i will always love you.
forever.

cita time skolah =)

smbung cita smlm.

my very first meal..wus..

aku tak hingat.
hahaha.
tp yg bes nya duk asrama,
kau tak kan penah kurus.
sb makan 6 kali sehari.
pagi. branch. lunch. hi-tea. dinner. supper.
sedangkan sehari cuma bayar seringgit! hahaha~
heaven! biskut kering pun aku g jugak
standard weight mesti 59-60kg.
tp aku ingt aku suka amik buah lebey.
haha. brape kali kena tangkap.
tp aku rileks saja.
pas makan, wat skill baling pinggan ke dlm besen
hehehe....
very bad.not nice.
*adik2 jgn ikut ok*

my very first sports..

rejam lembing.
hahaha.
klaka gle.
nasib dulu tak maju.tak da video.
kalu tak, adoi.
u tatau, i siap "hunga-hunga" lagi i nak baling kayu tuh.
berbakat jugak aku nak berburu.
nanti2 kot la nak masuk hutann...

my very first hantu experiance.,

time tu g prep lambat.
hahaha..
gara-garu memilih tmpat nak pee...
sangup balik asrama.
firstly "dia" main tutup2 lampu...
then we heard sumthing,
erkkkkkkk~
hahah..
lari lintang pukang, mcm tak cukup tanah.
ok.taubat kejap aku.
g prep paling awal.hahah~
byk lagi,
tapi tak pa la.
nanti anak2 korang tak nak masuk plak skolah neh.
hahahaah~

my very first hospitalization..

aku penah sesak nafas sbb esok trial spm..
ntah la cuak sgt la tu.
hahaha..
(malu weh. malu)
trus warden anto g emergency room kat hospital..
setiba nya kat sana..
aku jumpa..dokter tu handsome la sgt2..
*wee.. lega dlm hati smpai aku lupe esok exam*
heheh...
kau tau ape die kasi aku?
plastic bungkus kuih.
die suh aku bernafas dlm plastic tu.
haiya!
die ckp
"adik panic nk exam eh?"
hahahahahahahahahaha
*amek kau!*

my very first bite...wus..

hahahaha..
ni kena bite ngn lebah.
korang penah kena sengat ngn lebah?
uish.
sakit gile!
mase tu.baru nak beraksi nak shot lah konon2.
skali i donno which part of my shirt yg berlubang.
itu lebah silap masuk sarang.
die pegi gigit ketiak.
dah la pilih port tak langsung tak strategik!
langsung tak strategik!
*eee*
ok.
dah.
ni part tak macho.tak mo cita byk2.
hahahaha

my very first exam..wus..

add math.
and aku failed.
i got 38 =)
hahahaha~
i donno whut i my mind.
tp fokoknye aku fail.
hehe..kalu blaja kat skolah asrama ni.
diorg blaja mmg super laju.
satu bulan aku nganga kat blakang sb terkedu.
hehe..nak cari geng pn satu hal.

my very first crime.. wus..

aku penah curi2 kuar asrama.
semata-mata nak buang kucing.
haha.
kami ber 5 masa tu.
hahahahahahha~
aku tau.mesti korang ingt kami kejam.
tp kucing tu lebey kejam kat aku.
meja study aku tu,
jadi port pee, poo, poot dia..
aku tatau ape masalah die..
die siap wat party makan burung kat bwh meja aku.
why aku?
whuaa..hehe..
akibat dr perbuatan tersebut.
kami dipangey warden.
die marah2..
smpai rs nak suh kami makan fiskies kucing tu.
hehehe. =p

btw. terlalu byk nak cita sbnrnya~ tp i wus grateful to be a part of it.
the most important thing overall,
that place teached me the most wonderful things in the world..
i learnt to wore tudung. permanently. insyaAllah.
i learnt a lot about friendship =)
i learnt to be more indepandent.

and for who i am today.

BELAJAR DAN BERBAKTI =)

PUTRAJAYA: Timbalan Perdana Menteri, Tan Sri Muhyiddin Yassin, sebentar tadi mengumumkan 20 Sekolah Berprestasi Tinggi, membabitkan 10 sekolah berasrama penuh, empat sekolah menengah harian dan enam sekolah rendah seluruh negara.
Sekolah terbabit adalah:

Sekolah berasrama penuh:
1. Sekolah Tun Fatimah (STF), Johor Bahru
2. Sekolah Datuk Abdul Razak (SDAR), Seremban
3. Kolej Melayu Kuala Kangsar (KMKK), Perak
4. Sekolah Seri Puteri, Cyberjaya
5. Sekolah Menengah Sultan Abdul Halim, Kedah
6. Kolej Tunku Kurshiah (TKC), Seremban
7. Kolej Islam Sultan Alam Shah, Klang
8. Sekolah Menengah Sains Tuanku Syed Putra, Perlis
9. Sekolah Sultan Alam Shah, Putrajaya
10. Sekolah Menengah Sains Muzaffar Syah , Melaka

Sekolah menengah harian:
1. Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Perempuan Sri Aman, Petaling Jaya
2. Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Aminuddin Baki, Kuala Lumpur
3. Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Sultanah Asma, Kedah
4. Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan (P) St George, Pulau Pinang

Sekolah rendah:
1. Sekolah Kebangsaan Seri Bintang utara, Kuala Lumpur
2. Sekolah Kebangsaan Zainab (2) Kota Bharu, Kelantan
3. Sekolah Kebangsaan Taman Tun Dr Ismail 1, Kuala Lumpur
4. Sekolah Convent Kota Taiping, Perak
5. Sekolah Kebangsaan Bukit Damansara, Kuala Lumpur
6. Sekolah Kebangsaan Bandar Baru Uda 2, Johor Bahru

yuhuu. seronok kejap.hehe.dulu aku skolah situ. dr 2002 til 2003, masuk time form 4. skg dah jadi skolah berprestasi~ hope this title will remain smpai bila2 huhu~during my year,mase tu, if tak silap intake 8 pompuan n around 40 lelaki. memula smpai, rasa cm tak nak turun kereta pun ada, rs inferior lah..hehe~ dpt amik pour science, walhal aku teringin sgt nk amek techno..tp papa aku tak kasi.adeih..redha sajalah~ rumah sukan dpt rumah cendikia (biru) hehe..actly. time 1st day which wus 4 February 2002, time pendaftran tu cikgu sharifah bulat tarik aku masuk umah die..dgn harapan aku bley lari utk umah.btw sory cikgu..u silap tarik org.kaki je nampak panjang tp skali lari tercunggap2 cam tak cukup oxygen.(salah kan alam sekitar pula.) hehe~..hahah..aku ni lari tak kuat pun. kalu suh lari dari prep tu aku mmg master. hehe.. kul 8 start 830 mlm baru msuk...kul 11 hbis.. kul 10 mlm aku dah cabut.hehe~

my very 1st impression...

the very 1st person i met..wus...

her.
my very best friend =)
she wus beside me.
org kl.
aku plak cakap kedah tak cover punya.
die dah usha aku pelik.hahaha~
dat wus the day, we had a ech other =)
til now.

the very 1st dorm i went..wus..

cendekia =)
" uishh...panjng nya dorm diaa..."
satu dorm tu...40 org tido dlm tu..
hehe..
belum tgk lagi 'swimming pool'..
tak kan bley lupa..
berdindingkan zinc kiri kanan..
lubang sane sini.
hehe.

the cery 1st crush..wus..

the wayang pacak!
hahaha.
kat skolah tgk muvi
mcm org dulu2..
letak projector kat tgh dataran.
org jual makanan kiri kanan..~
yuhuu..jumaat hari feverot!
but then, aku tak penah b able to finish da muvis..
sb half way aku mesti dah tumbang..
errkk...
hahahah..

to be continued...
esok ade discussion =p takut tak sempat bace..
otherwise aku kene ketuk ngn supervisor..
cya!

7 bulan lagi

5 words can describe my feeling ryte now
takut. risau. pathetic. desperate dan breathless.

camne kalu tak sempat?
camne kalau pape jadi?
camne kalu die lari?
camne kalu.
cmne kalu..
haiyaaa....

nape aku countdown cam org mengandung neh?
tinggal lagi 7 bulan, n banyak lagi belum buat.
btw.im not pregnant.
im not yet married.
aku tengah countdown timeline sepatutnya grad.
aku kena bertungkus lumus hbiskan suma requirement,
fighting!semangat!
kalu takk....im so doomed!
risiko nye:

• aku tak ley balik raye =(
• aku terpkase celebrate bday aku dis year kat sini lg =(
• papa mama aku mesti mesti mesti bising~ haiya~

hehehe...
august plz let me be with u.
put my name on it.

where will i be 10 years from now?

salam.

10 years from now? insyaAllah if tak da aral melintang, il be 34 then.hehe..
34?il be gorgeous, middle aged women with anak2 rambut warne silver mesti berjinak2 tumbuh..

1. i think il be surrounded wif a wonderful and the nicest future husband in the world (which i donno-who-he-is) and a few charming children (which i already-create-their-name)! hehe..aminn..

2. still a govermant's servant i guess? hehe..but...with scholarship? to complete my specialist?hehe...bley ke?kasi la..kasi la..i promish u il serve to the people til i pencen..bley la..bley la..

3. il b somewhere around utara..=) i never think il be away from my mama again...i just want to be by her side..for always.like she used to be with my nenek..

4. i definately wil be a fat lady? heheh..i guess so.sb with my capability to eat a lot skg..no wonder il be fat in 10 years time..hahahaha..(gelak jahat gile)

5. i hope i already had a house on my own.i mean milik bersama..haha.. with the deco which i had created for all this timeeee haiyaaa..red paintings, curtains, sofa..ok.plz stop! hehe....

6. last but not least..i hope..all my family member sentiasa sehat =))

but.Allah menentukan everything =) manusia hanya mampu merancang..Allah yg menentukan..baik buruk utk kita..Allah lebih tahu...aminrabbaalamin..
if dulu time skolah, i used to wrote 'where will i be 5 years from now' and hide it somewhere in my dorm so that, the day i come to look for it, i wil read it all over again to see wheather am i the same old person with the same dreams. til now i donno where i put it..coz i dun even remember where i hide it. hehe..tp skg dah maju kan..so, pakai blog ja..koman2 u lupa password..but u stil can read it =p